So there's this girl I know and she's scared to death of everything. Well, most things at least. But there are two things she's scared of more than anything else. One is getting lost. The other's being found.
She's been given this map. It's like an old pirate map and confusing as heck. She doesn't know where she's going but she's trying to work out which way to go anyway. And there are these people constantly giving advice, but none of them can agree and she's getting drowned by their voices. She doesn't want to end up nowhere, at least not alone.
She doesn't want to be found because she knows people will be disappointed by what they find. And she doesn't want anyone too close either. Not so much because she's scared of getting hurt, she's been hurt before, it's okay, but because she's scared of hurting other people. It's the guilt she can't stand. She knows she'll screw it up. And she'll leave you more broken than you were before.
It's not that she doesn't care. She cares so much that she cries herself to sleep at night. She's only living for others these days. But if you knew she cared then it would all go wrong.
Stick a pin in your map and get as far away from her as you can.
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"So there's this girl I know and she's scared to death of everything. Well, most things at least. But there are two things she's scared of more than anything else. One is getting lost. The other's being found."i think everyone has those fears, so dont feel strange or alone in those feelings.
"She's been given this map. It's like an old pirate map and confusing as heck. She doesn't know where she's going but she's trying to work out which way to go anyway."that is what life is. nobody knows where they are going, some people dont even have the map. you have to figure out the way to go as you go, and try to enjoy life while you do. if anyone deserves to have a happy life it is you.
"And there are these people constantly giving advice, but none of them can agree and she's getting drowned by their voices."
if other people's advice are drowning you out, then stop listening. you are a fully capable young woman, you can find your way without it if you need to. Everyone's advice is going to be different, because we are all different. but it is sort of like a grocery store of advice, you can pick and chose what you want, and leave the things that look bad on the shelves, it's all up to you.
She doesn't want to end up nowhere, at least not alone.
"She doesn't want to be found because she knows people will be disappointed by what they find." now you know that isnt true. there is nothing disappointing about you. you are a wonderful girl, if someone is disappointed in you they are either a complete idiot, absolutely crazy, or their bar is set way way to high. i can not fathom someone being disappointed with you.
"And she doesn't want anyone too close either. Not so much because she's scared of getting hurt, she's been hurt before, it's okay, but because she's scared of hurting other people. It's the guilt she can't stand. She knows she'll screw it up. And she'll leave you more broken than you were before."i dont believe that for a second. i cant see you hurting someone intentionally ever. you are one of the nicest people i know. you will not screw it up. if something happens it isnt your fault, it was meant to happen, but you cant just stay locked inside yourself. other people care about you, and arent going to leave you even if you do hurt them, which i highly doubt you would.
"It's not that she doesn't care. She cares so much that she cries herself to sleep at night. She's only living for others these days. But if you knew she cared then it would all go wrong.you need to care about yourself too. you have a lot to live for, whether you see it or not. others care about you deeply, your have a giant heart, which is amazing and wonderful, but you need to let some of that care and love stay with you. you deserve it.
"Stick a pin in your map and get as far away from her as you can."no. i refuse. i am going to do the exact opposite as soon as i can.
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